2019 Happenings

I have been wanting to write a blog update for weeks now, but illness, pet illness, and plain businesses have gotten in the way. I’m not 100% yet, and neither is my furry companion, but for now I have some time to post updates on what exciting things I’ve been up to and what is still to come.

We opened The Light Burns Blue (2.0) last Thursday. Same play, different cast. It’s been a fun experience to explore this piece in new ways, to take on new characters, and to revisit some old favorites. We have three more shows, this Tuesday-Thursday, all at 10am, all open to the public, tickets only $5.

For more information on this show, check out my post from March, I Do Believe In Fairies.

me as "Frances,” telling the story of the Cottingley Fairies

me as "Frances,” telling the story of the Cottingley Fairies

This past weekend we had rehearsals for the third annual Midwest Dramatist Play Conference. Playwrights from all over the country will be coming to hear their 10-minute plays receive a professional reading, and hear feedback from our panelists. For more information on our panelists and the conference, click here!

Rehearsal in progress for Midwest Dramatist Conference

Rehearsal in progress for Midwest Dramatist Conference

The creative team of my own MDC play, “Dragon Slayers: Quest for the Egg of Armagon.”

The creative team of my own MDC play, “Dragon Slayers: Quest for the Egg of Armagon.”

Rehearsal for Wicked Creatures produced by Confluence Theater Company will start October 1st, so stay tuned for more info on that! Until then, check out these bios and headshots of our fantastic cast!

Casey Jane as Sonia Smithson


Casey is thrilled to be playing Sonya in Emma’s excellent and unique story. She has been a presence on KC stages since 2013, with notable credits including: The Summer House (KC Fringe 2019), Elephant (Rising Tide Productions), Any Questions? (KC Fringe 2018), Chainsaw the Musical (Kokopelli), The Sarah Play (InHEIRitance Project), Tennessee Playboy (MET), Walls Suck (KC Fringe 2017), and The Death of Cupid (The Living Room theatre). Casey is the co-founder of Rising Tide Productions and works as a producer, marketer, and actor for the company. In her spare time she loves on her fella Bob, son Saxon, and furbeasts Miko & Emo.

Weiyi Zhang as Emily Clearwater


Weiyi is excited and thankful to be a part of this production of Wicked Creatures by Emma Carter. She graduated from the University of Iowa, where she studied Theatre Arts and Marketing; and moved from Iowa City to Olathe last July. She wants to thank people who's been willing to push and challenge her; her dog, Archibald, for his love; and of course her husband, Joseph, for his patience and rock-solid support. Weiyi cannot wait to start the rehearsal process and contribute to this wicked play. See you at show time!

Connor Eastman as Archibald Worthington III


Connor Eastman is thrilled to be working again with Confluence Theatre, and to be performing in the Living Room Theatre once more. He was previously at Living Room in Elephant, as John the police officer. He has also recently appeared in Scream in Blue for Confluence as part of the Fringe Festival, and as various characters in Honky with the Black Rep. Have a spooky time and remember to support local theatre!

Jamie Lin as Clara Hollowell

Jamie Lin

Jamie Lin is ecstatic to join Confluence Theatre Company for the role of Clara. Though she is often on stage in Kansas City, you might know her better by her burlesque name, Annie-Mae Allure. Jamie is the executive producer of the Kansas City Nerdlesque Festival and the Rude Revue and Burly Q, both nominated for Best of KC 2019 awards. Catch her next production at Daveys Uptown on Nov 16. When not performing or producing, she spends time with her boys (Erik, Braedon, and Matty), playing Wizards Unite, and napping.

Joshua Gleeson as Barnabas Brody

Joshua Gleeson

Joshua Gleeson is so humbled and honored to be a part of Wicked Creatures. You might have seen Joshua this summer in HASF's production of Shakespeare in Love. You will definitely see him this Winter in the Living Room's production of Milking Christmas. However, being able to play an original character created by the incredibly talented Emma Carter's has always been a dream of his. He would like to thank Confluence Theatre, the wonderful Amy O'Connor, and the entire, hard-working cast and crew for creating such a powerful production. Of course, nothing would ever be possible without the love and support from his marvelous wife. Thank you Kaitlynn for all that you do for all that are. I love you!

I Do Believe in Fairies!

Frances and the “Cottingley Fairies”

Frances and the “Cottingley Fairies”

Spring has FINALLY sprung in Kansas City and it couldn’t come soon enough.

We’re two weeks into rehearsals for The Light Burns Blue by Silva Semerciyan. This play, inspired by the true story of the Cottingley Fairies, centers around two young cousins, Elsie Wright and Frances Griffiths, who in 1917, having purportedly taken photographs of real fairies near their home in Cottingley, Rorkshire, were invited by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (the creator of Sherlock Holmes) to speak at a conference in London about their supernatural encounters. The play was commissioned by Tonic Theatre in partnership with Nick Hern Books as part of Platform, an initiative comprising a series of big-cast plays with predominantly or all-female casts, written specifically for performance by school, college and your-theatre groups, with the aim of addressing gender imbalance and inequality in theatre.

There are 45 speaking roles in this play, divided among five actors. I have the pleasure of playing Frances Griffiths, a dramatic young girl with a penchant for story-telling, Vive, the fun-loving prankster, Madame Blavatsky, an aristocratic theosophist and many more. It’s been such a joy to work on a children’s theater piece again, especially with such rich source material. This script invites us to ask, “Does the world need artists?” (Me: um, yes!) and if so, why?

Cottingley Fairies
The Light Burns Blue

Our production is made possible by StagePlay. StagePlay is an immersive, performing arts field trip for children grades K-8 that adopts a holistic learning approach designed to satisfy Kansas & Missouri State educational standards. StagePlay is singular in its formation, holistic in its practice, and unique to Johnson County. It is the ONLY performing arts, education-based field trip providing three days of classroom curriculum, a theatrical performance, and engagement activities (including S.T.E.A.M.) facilitated through a field-trip model for area school districts.

Content is geared towards grades 3rd-8th.

Our Production Team includes Director Patrick Pribyl, Artistic Director Elena Stephenson, Scenic Designer Morgan Cole, and Costume Designer Arwen White. Our cast includes Lauren Bailey, Matthew Henrickson, Lydia Miller, Jamie Turner, Alex Walters, and myself!

If you want to know more about the true story of the Cottingley Fairies, check out the video below…

Wicked, Beautiful Creatures...


A BIG “Thank you!” is in order. After one four-hour rehearsal lead by director Emily Swenson, our creative teamed (R.H Wilhoit, Laura Jacobs, Emmy Panzica Piontek, Amy O’Conner, Nick Uthoff, and Chloe Robbins) staged a reading of my play Wicked Creatures. This version is significantly re-written from previous versions I’ve shared. Wicked Creatures received a staged reading as part of the Harold Clurman Division New Playreading Series at the Stella Adler Studio for Acting in New York, NY last summer, and this draft is an improvement from that.

Wicked Creatures centers around three women in the Victorian era: Sonya Smithson, a cross-dressing scientist, determined to create a the ultimate female contraceptive; Emily Clwearwater, a meek yet moral “angel of the house” who dreams of a normal life with husband and child; and Clara Hollowell, a foul-mouthed fallen woman, determined to raise her status in life.

The readings went better than I ever expected and my new goal for this piece is to get it up on its feet, one way or another! So if you’re looking to produce a period piece with strong female characters that explores gender stereotypes, classicism, and a person’s right to their own body, boy do I have a play for you!

Pictured: R.H Wilhoit, Emma Carter, Alisa Lynn, Javier Luna

Pictured: R.H Wilhoit, Emma Carter, Alisa Lynn, Javier Luna

In other news, last night I had the pleasure of dressing up as one of Sterling Witt’s beautiful paintings for his new Explosive exhibit, now on display in Albrecht-Kemper Museum of Art in St. Jospeh, Missouri. It was my goal to embody this beautiful painting, now named “Emma.” I can honestly say I’ve never had, nor did I ever expect to have, a painting named after me and I am so so beyond grateful for the honor. I was joined by many other beautiful women, each embodying a painting of their own. Visit Sterling’s website for more information.

Emma Carter as Emma the painting.

Emma Carter as Emma the painting.

Emma by Sterling Witt

Emma by Sterling Witt

Something Wicked this way comes...

Heads up: From this point on all New Year, No Diet posts will be located on their own page under the “NYND” tab so that I may dedicate this blog space exclusively to sharing information on creative projects.

Like for instance…

A staged reading of Wicked Creatures at the Uptown Arts Bar
3611 Broadway Blvd, Kansas City, MO 64111
Free and open to the public.

Wicked Creatures
 recently received a public staged reading at The Stella Adler Studio for Acting in NYC as part of the Harold Clurman Division New Play-reading Series. It also received a staged reading at The Living Room Theater in Kansas City and was selected for production at TLR as part of Kansas City's Fringe Festival, 2016.

Hope to see you there.

My Disordered Eating Story; From The Biggest Loser to Binging to Brene Brown

TG: eating disorder, disordered eating

You don’t have to read self-help books, see a therapist, or do self-work on a regular basis to be familiar with the term “perfectionist” or “perfectionism.”


It’s not uncommon for someone to refer to themselves as a perfectionist with a sense of pride, however whenever I hear someone use this term to describe themselves, I cringe interally and make a mental note to buy them a copy of the “The Gifts of Imperfection” by Brene Brown.

New York Times bestselling author and self-described shame researcher Brene Brown might be most commonly know for her viral 2010 Ted Talk on The Power of Vulnerability. It is one of the top five most viewed TED talks in the world. However, that same year she also released her book, “The Gifts of Imperfection; Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are,” which I can’t recommend enough to anyone who has ever felt like a born failure or struggled with shame and self-loathing.

It was the first resource that helped me after I graduated from college, aware that I was engaging in disordered eating and fitness habits, but unsure what to do next.

Mid-way through weight loss

Mid-way through weight loss

Like many, my disordered eating started young, when I was in high school. I identified as a “chubby kid” in late elementary school and all of middle school. I was bullied, not specifically for my weight, but by the time I reached middle school I’d seen enough images of beautiful women on television and in movies, within the pages of shopping catalogues and on the covers of magazines to know being overweight made me worth less on the totem pole of society. With no “real life” friends, a lot of anger and resentment, and very little self-worth, I was a miserable, angsty teenager who pushed everyone away and found solace only in books, writing fan-fiction, and online role playing games.

Until high school. A time of new beginnings. By that time I knew I liked telling stories, and performing in plays became my main outlet. I began to make friends who shared my interests. To find acceptance. And when I was asked to the prom my sophomore year, I received “the push I needed to finally get fit and lose weight!”

I was fifteen.

It started harmlessly. I really did want to get healthy, to feel good in my body for once. I had never been athletic so I started by going to Curves with my mom. The environment was actually very sweet and supportive, mostly women in their 50s+. Then came counting calories and eating meal replacement bars or weight-loss snacks. I was a devoted follower of the Biggest Loser at this time and devoured each weight-loss tip and trick religiously. We had a treadmill in our house and I would walk on it for an hour a day, watching BL and America’s Next Top Model. When I finally got to a point where I didn’t feel embarrassed to work out in public I started going to the YMCA every morning before school, burning my calories on the elliptical and building muscle on the machines. At my lightest, I lost thirty pounds. People--cool kids--started complimenting me. Other boys started noticing me. Everyone was so proud. I got cast in bigger parts in school plays. I could finally enjoy going shopping for clothes. I became a happier person which in turn made me a friendlier person. I became kinder, soft-spoken and demure. I felt beautiful for the first time since I was a little girl. It was a Cinderella story.

Post weight-loss

Until, of course as you all know, I plateaued. I couldn’t cut my calories anymore. I couldn’t ampt up the length of my workouts. I couldn’t keep losing and I couldn’t maintain the weight loss. Enter: binge eating.

“Binge eating disorder (BED) is a severe, life-threatening, and treatable eating disorder characterized by recurrent episodes of eating large quantities of food (often very quickly and to the point of discomfort); a feeling of a loss of control during the binge; experiencing shame, distress or guilt afterwards; and not regularly using unhealthy compensatory measures (e.g., purging) to counter the binge eating. It is the most common eating disorder in the United States.” - www.nationaleatingdisorders.org

I was a regular binge eater from somewhere during my junior year in high school to my second year of college, so just about four years. The cycle was simple: eat as “healthy” (as little and as restrictive) as possible for as long as possible, “fall off the bandwagon,” and then compulsively eat as much food as I could stomach with the promise that tomorrow I would “make up for it” by “cleansing” for a day (only eating fruits and vegetables or something light like cereal.) *Note: I am not saying all cleanses or vegetarians are wrong, just that for me in this time and place it was definitely not a mentally or physically healthy choice.

Diet Cycle

One ordinary day, second semester of my junior year of college, I was speaking with a friend about my current calorie restrictions (less than 1000 a day) and she simply pointed out, “That’s not healthy. You can’t live on that.”

Silly as it sounds, I realized she was right. That’s all it took. A little outside perspective. A reality check.

The Hermione Granger in me knew what to do next: visit the library.

Only after reading up on the various types of eating disorders, disordered eating, and unhealthy behaviors related to weight loss did I realize I needed to make some changes to my lifestyle.

All of this to say, once I finally got to a place where I could start trying to work through my issues surrounding food, fitness, and body image, it became apparent one main cause for my disordered eating was perfectionism.

“Perfectionism is not the same thing as striving to be your best. Perfectionism is the belief that if we live perfect, look perfect, and act perfect, we can minimize or avoid the pain of blame, judgement, and shame. It’s a shield. It’s a twenty-ton shield that we lug around thinking it will protect us when, in fact, it’s the thing that’s really preventing us from flight.” -Brene Brown

Perfectionism. For me perfection was about feeling like I belonged. That friendless pre-teen “loser” was still living inside me and she was terrified. I wanted to feel worthy, to be well-liked. To know I was good enough, without question. This meant getting outside validation, because it sure as hell wasn’t coming from the inside.

In college it meant being within the top ten percent of my class. Always being prepared--studying the material backwards and forward so that I would never be caught not knowing an answer, for not knowing would mean I was failing.

Brene Brown Quote

In regards to my body and disordered eating, my perfectionism manifested in this way:
- feeling superior for eating “clean,” “safe,” “good” foods
- feeling like a failure after eating (or binging) on “bad” “unclean” foods
- eating as little as possible for days at a time to make up for eating “bad” foods
- binging after these periods of starvation - most often on junk food  
- sometimes taking laxatives to try and manage this cycle
- hating my body, constantly scrutinizing it, anxious about how others perceived it
- scrutinizing other people’s bodies, comparing myself to theirs, seeing their body as a marker of their worth
- spending a large chunk of my time obsessed with food, exercise, weight loss, and my body when I could have been making memories and trying new things
- feeling worthless, disgusting, like I was born wrong
- feeling that I didn’t belong and was unworthy of love
- suicidal thoughts* (I never intended to kill myself. I fantasized about it but never wanted to die)

So. How did I get from there to here?

A lot of damn hard work, that’s how. Work that included reading “The Gifts of Imperfection,” and “Rising Strong,” another one by Brene Brown, THERAPY, sharing my story with a select number of supportive friends, bawling my eyes out, growing up. Honestly, I’ll have to write a completely separate post to go into more detail because it’s been (and still is) a long road.

But the good news is I’m here now, past the worst of it, and I haven’t had a binge like the kind I used to have in over five years (if my memory is accurate)!

I’ve decided to share this story NOT because I want sympathy or attention, but because it gives some context as to why I am the person I am today and why I want to dedicate this blog in part to figuring out how to live a normal healthy lifestyle, without dieting.

I’ll close by leaving you with Brene Brown’s Ten Guideposts to Whole Hearted Living. It’s not quite the same unless you’ve read the book, but I love this bomb ass poster made by Leonie Dawson. You can actually download the poster, print it, and color it in yourself if you like.


New Year, No Diet

Do you remember the person you were five years ago?


Twenty years ago I was six years old. I don’t remember much about that time, but I know I was happy. I had a loving family, a safe home, and plenty of space to be a child.

But I wasn’t a happy person fifteen years ago, or ten, or five. Maybe not even two years ago.

There were definitely moments of triumph, achievements I’m proud of, and relationships I’m eternally thankful for, but no manner of professional or personal success can make up for a lack of emotional well-being. No manner of outside validation can make up for a lack of self-worth.

Hi, my name is Emma and I struggle with disordered eating.

Or I used to. For years now I thought I’d moved past it, but it’s January 1st, 2019 and after eleven years of diet and exercise regime experimentation, after eleven years of bouncing from Weight Watchers to calorie counting to dairy-free, gluten-free, sugar-free, paleo, vegetarian, juice cleanses, diet teas, and back again I still haven’t managed to reach and maintain the body of my dreams.

And I’m tired.

So this year, instead of kicking off my year with the traditional hard core diet and exercise regimen, I’ve decided I’m just going to...not diet.

Instead of dieting I’m going to try and tackle what should be the easiest thing in the world but in our society today seems apparently impossible for the vast majority:

I’m going to figure out how to eat like a normal person.

A healthy normal person, yes, but one who enjoys treats in moderation, without feeling like she’s “breaking rules.” A normal person who can enjoy eating out with friends, instead of seeing it as a “cheat meal” or something to “make up for later.”

A healthy normal person who happens to eat all the food groups. No shade intended towards vegetarians, vegans or anyone with a food allergy. I just happen to enjoy meat and dairy as well as fruits, vegetables and grains, and they don’t make me sick, so I’m going to choose them for myself.

Some of you might be saying to yourself, “whoop-dee-freakin’-doo, Emma.” And that’s ok. Others might be offended by what I’m saying, or feel like I’m attacking their choice to engage in restrictive dieting, and I apologize if it comes off that way. Above all, I respect every human’s right to do whatever they want with their body. You know your body better than anyone, and you know what’s right for you.

But I’m guessing if you’ve gotten this far, a number of you might be feeling the same way I’ve been feeling. Maybe you have a similar relationship to food regardless of your food preferences. And if you do, I invite you to join me this year as I explore the intersection between wanting to feel good and look good (by my own standards), without sacrificing my mental health in the process.

I have a lot of territory I want to explore and questions to ask.

“Is it possible for those recovering from an eating disorder or disordered eating to lose weight in a “healthy way” without falling back into unhealthy behaviors and cycles?”

“How can we say, ‘All bodies are beautiful,’ and love our friends and family no matter their size but then turn around and judge our own bodies?”

“How do I even cook food that isn’t “diet” food?”

If you’re game to participate in the conversation, thank you. If not, that’s cool too. I wish everyone the best in your journey to “making peace” with food and your body in our body-image warping society.

My next post will include a little background on my own struggles with food, body image, and perfectionism. If you care to hear where I’m coming from, click this link, and if not stay tuned for future posts in which I’ll share videos and articles, and pose and try to answer questions about food, body-image, exercise, and the pressures of society that keep us in a constant state of feeling like we’re not enough.

Until then, I’ll leave you with this #truthbomb by Danielle LaPorte.


~This is Halloween, this is Halloween~

Today is the daaaaaaay

It’s ~Halloween!!!~

And I’m home sick with the flu. :(

Silver lining: I’ve finally had time to catch up on some playwriting work, mainly, uploading scripts to the New Play Exchange and updating this website!


Today I went back, read all of my past blog entries and thought to myself, “Damn…I’ve done a lot!”

And not just this year. Last year too, and the year before that!

First and foremost, I adopted an adorable cat named Lux. Follow me on Instagram if you want this fuzzy face flooding your feed.

But back to theater.

(To be perfectly honest, this is my second time writing this half of the post because the first one was accidentally deleted, so I’m just going to cut to the chase.)

A little over a year ago I decided to transition from working as a part-time ticket clerk, part-time artist to a full-time freelance artist. My goal: try to survive for a year on all my theater-related jobs patched together, apply for graduate school, and focus on writing.

Well, it’s been a year and I’m still alive so, check.

I worked my butt off applying for graduate school, received one offer, and turned it down because it didn’t feel right.

And I’ve written two new full-length plays in that time, one a musical, one a straight play.

Of all my goals, that last one feels like the one I didn’t quite meet. I thought being freelance would give me more time to write, but not so much. There have been pros and cons to going freelance.

Pros of Going Freelance

  • Make money doing what I love - not soul crushing

  • Flexibility of schedule - I don’t have to “ask off” work, I control what jobs I accept and don’t accept

  • Always a new adventure - I’m not stuck behind a desk, in a windowless office, with a phone in my ear. Some days I’m dancing with preschools, other days I’m filming a Fruit Loops commercial in someone’s pool.

  • Opportunities to work from home - Again, not stuck in an office, I have time to actually spend in my apartment with my cat!

Cons of Going Freelance

  • Financial instability - always nervous about having enough money to get by

  • Divided attention span - sometimes I do 2-3 different jobs a day and by the end of it I am mentally exhausted from switching mental gears and driving all over

  • Feels like I’m not a real adult - I don’t have a house, a 401K, a baby or a marriage. Compared to some of my friends, I don’t feel like a “real” adult.

  • Ultimately unsustainable - I haven’t been able to save money, only just get by.

So I’m at a crossroads right now. I could either…

  1. Try to find a way to make freelance life for sustainable (like, improve my skills and work as a grant writer or a copy writer, not just a teacher/actor)

  2. Get a full-time day job, with benefits, that I actually like

  3. Apply for graduate school again and maybe do that

  4. Marry rich or inherit a large sum of money from a long-lost relative

We’ll see what happens. (FYI universe, I’m open to any of these paths, so uh...let’s start manifesting, eh?)

Let me be clear though; I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished. I’ve worked a lot this last year. I’ve grown as a person and an artist. I’ve pushed myself. I’ve taken risks. I have experienced some crazy things. And I’ve made the world a better place through the work I’ve done.

No matter what happens next, I will never regret choosing to jump into freelance full-time. I will never regret this time in my life.

And just in case anyone is curious, here’s a list of all the gigs I string together on a regular basis. This is my version of being a freelance artist:

  • Standardized patient for two different colleges

  • Pre-K ballet teacher with Tippi Toes

  • Teaching Artist with the Johnson County Arts & Heritage Center

  • Teaching Artist with Kansas City Young Audiences

  • Teaching Artist with The Coterie

  • Scavenger Hunt Host with Watson Adventures

  • Actress with Dinner Detective Kansas City

  • Radio VO actress

  • Theatrical actress/director

  • Commercial actress/print model (occasionally)

  • Box Office/Front of House

  • Girl Scout empowerment workshops

  • Creative Carnivals attendant

Alright, time for this sicky to hit the hay. Until next time. Happy Halloween!

Like a Virgin


As usual, it’s been too long since my last post. It’s hard to keep up with documenting your life when you’re too busy living it.

This was my first opportunity to play the lead role in a fully staged production in Kansas City! Let me tell you, I was pretty nervous stepping into a company of talented actors who (except for Damian, Hollis, and I) were reprising their original roles, however, as rehearsals progressed I started to find my Mary Sue and figure out how she fit into the crazy world around her.

After a whirlwind eleven-day rehearsal/tech process we ran for two weeks. I only wish we could have spent more time together, because one of the best aspects of being a part of this show was the company involved. Every single person in this cast and crew is someone I feel lucky to be working with for the first time, or was overjoyed to work with again, and now and I hope to work with EVERYONE in the Glitterbang company again very soon.

J. Will Fritz, Damian Blake, R. H Wilhoit, Ellen Kirk, Jesse Ray Metcalf, Emma Carter, Briana Marxen-McCollom, Melissa Fennewald, Bonnie Griffin, Ai Vi Bui, Alisa Lynn.

J. Will Fritz, Damian Blake, R. H Wilhoit, Ellen Kirk, Jesse Ray Metcalf, Emma Carter, Briana Marxen-McCollom, Melissa Fennewald, Bonnie Griffin, Ai Vi Bui, Alisa Lynn.

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“They just want me…”

“They just want me…”

Mother, Father, and the Virgin.

Mother, Father, and the Virgin.

So what’s up next, you ask? Pull on a sweater, order yourself a Pumpkin spice latte and saddle on up for some spooktacular storytelling, because Kansas City Horror Play Festival is back! We JUST closed submissions for ten-minute plays from local playwrights. This year I’m participating as a director alongside Matt Rapport, Jesse Ray Metcalf, and the event’s creator, Erika Baker. More news to come…




Last weekend we performed "Seven and Ten" by Prisca Jabet Kendagore at The Pearl in Kansas City, MO. Last night we brought our reading to The Monicle in St. Louis, and we have one more performance tonight. It's been such a treat to dig my teeth into this beautiful script full of complex characters. I read for Sara, a young, white, Christian woman who dreams of being a wife and a mother. She's known since she was twelve what God has planned for her, and although she is strong in her faith she struggles to thrive in the mold the church has given her. I've never had the chance to play such a real, flawed, earnest human and I can't thank Prisca and the universe enough for giving me this opportunity. 


I have two projects cooking for next week: SPELLBOUND qualified as a finalist in the Olathe Civic Theater New Works Playwright Competition! We're presenting a ten-minute teaser of our musical on March 2nd and 3rd at the Olathe Civic Theater, along-side four other finalists. The audiences who attend these teaser nights will then vote for which show they want to see fully staged in a workshop production! It's a fantastic, local opportunity and we're so excited to be participating. 


On top of that I'm directing for the Fishtank Theatre’s Along The Line New Play Festival, a rapid-fire, theatrical response to a specific moment in history. This production contains 75 very, very short plays. (60 seconds or less.) It is a collection of the community conscious, a tool that contains, supports, and expresses many voices in one given community in one theatrical event, giving each voice equal weight. This work is about what the group has to say, not about individual plays. It’s not about “short attention span”, or “twitter theatre” or a “time race.” It actually requires great concentration to take in and process what this many voices are tuning into. It’s closer to epic theatre, than short form theatre in most every way. It’s one body of work, one cohort of artists, and one program.

I'm both a writer and a director in this process. At this point my responsibilities include directing  a chunk of twelve one-minute plays with my ensemble of fantastic actors, who include Matt Leonard, Margaret Shelby, Melissa Fennewald, Dashawn Young, Alexis Dupree, Joseph De Maria and Liz Kerlin. So far I love working with my playwrights, cast, and our BA stage manager Sonia Jacobsen. I can't wait to see all of the other plays in tech! 


Update # 2: New York, New Year

2018 is here and I can't wait to see what it brings.

Just a few weeks ago I finished off 2017 with a short trip to NYC where my play Wicked Creatures received a private table reading at the Stella Adler Acting Studio as part of he Harold Clurman First Breath Play Reading Series. The public reading will take place in June of this year, with an all Stella Adler acting alumni cast. 


And that's not all I'm looking forward to this year. Next up: a staged reading of Spellbound, a new musical collaboration between Krista Pojman and me. Ever wish that Disney would make a princess movie with a a homosexual protagonist? Wish granted. Come by the Living Room Theater in KC, MO on Monday, January 29th at 8:00pm to see this fairytale unfold. 

Next month I'll be performing again in 7 & 10, a new play about marriage and the lives of young Evangelicals, by one of my favorite playwrights and closest friends, Prisca Kendagore. We'll be doing script-in-hand performances in KC Feb. 18th & 19th AND in St. Louis Feb. 23rd & 24th.  

I won't bore you with my entire year's schedule, but 2018 is already looking to be a good one.

In other news...last year, when I started this blog-of-sorts, I'd just completed Danielle LaPorte's Goals With a Soul. So this year I revisited that program, and although this blog will remain forever and always "The Mindful Badass," I have some new core desire feelings for this upcoming year. I want to feel...

True. Hopeful. Faith. Connected. And Sheroic.

I want to feel True to my best self, to my moral compass, and to those I love.

I want to choose Hope over Fear. To believe the universe can be abundant, reconciliation is possible, and that each of us can make a difference. 

Faith in myself, those around me, and the universe as a whole

Connected on all levels. I want to strengthen my friendships, personal relationships, working relationships, and sense of community and belonging. 

And Sheroic in that sense that I still want to feel like a powerful, positive badass in all areas of my life: physical, mental, emotional, creatively, and spiritually. (I cannot take credit for this wonderful phrase. Check out the Sheroic podcast if you're looking to be a shero in your own life.)

How do you want to feel this year? You don't have to tell me. You don't have to tell anyone, so long as you know what your core desire feelings are and that every step you are taking is getting you closer to your truth. 

~ Happy New Year ~


Update #1 (Pre New York)

Phew, the times flies when you're crazy busy. Here's he scoop on what I've been up to:

Last month, I participated in The Fishtank Theater's The Insubordinates, a post-apocolyptic, ensemble-based intensive. It was great fun, and I made some new friends! (This is me in my crazy, apocalyptic circus costume.) 

The Insubordinates


As soon as Insubordinates was struck, I dove right into my favorite annual event: NO SLEEP NOVEMBER at The Living Room Theatre. Check out my badass team:

Dragon Slayer: Quest for the Egg of Armagon

In 24-hours I wrote and directed a new ten-minute play, Dragon Slayer: Quest for the Egg of Armagon, staring these amazingly talented actors. (Shea Ketchum, Pancho Javier, Erdin Schultz-Bever). We follow Shadowfox the Sure-footed and Tammy as their guide, Silver Stallion takes them on an adventure of teamwork and self-discovery (and dragon slaying, of course.) 

This month another new ten-minute play of mine, Friend Love, had it's debut as part of the Barn Player's annual 6x10 Play Festival. I also had the honor of writing content for the Fishtank's annual 12 Plays of Christmas. Check out this action shot of Fishtank Curator/Actress Heidi Van:

12 Plays of Christmas

And last (but certainly not least), the REASON for this blog's title...next week I will be flying to NEW YORK for a rehearsal of WICKED CREATURES, which is receiving a staged reading in NYC as part of the First Breath New Play Reading Series at the Stella Adler Studio of Acting! I am beyond honored and excited. Also a little bit terrified, but hey, what's life without a little adventure? 

I promise to write another blog post very soon, all about my experience in New York! Stay tuned...


Tomorrow will be the first Saturday morning without rehearsal for Checkmate, our new one-act musical written and performed by twelve fantastic middle schoolers, and facilitated by Krista Eyler, Arwen White, and myself. (Badass lady boss team FTW.) 

Checkmate is a game of choice, change, and challenge. Characters are taken from their everyday lives and forced into alternate realities or times where they must make a choice, fight for change, or face a challenge. They play at the mercy of the Game Masters, but as the game unfolds our characters learn they might have to bend or break the rules if they want to survive. 

Behold our fearsome team: 


We wrote this musical over the course of two months, meeting for five hours every Saturday and Sunday morning. We started from the ground up, brainstorming for a theme, creating characters, and inventing scenes together. Throughout the entire process these kids were creative, hardworking, and most of all kind. We had no drama. They were nice to each other. They listened, offering suggestions without tearing one another apart. They played together and included one another, or respected each other's space. I couldn't have asked for a better group of young artists to work with. 

On opening/closing night Krista told our team to always "Stay Humble. Stay Kind." I couldn't agree more. Too often as we garner success it's easy to lose sight of where we've been and to remember that we're all in this together. The professionals I most admire are the ones who don't let their ego take the lead, the ones who learn my name and chat with me back stage even if we don't have a scene together and who treat every person in the room with respect, from stage hands to designers to producers. 

I'm thankful to the universe for sending me a reminder of how wonderful the artistic process can be when everyone stays humble and kind. 



Leaping into Freelance

While on vacation with my mother and best friend back in July I made the decision to leave my part-time job in ticket sales and sustain myself entirely on freelance work. It was a big leap of faith for me, but one I finally felt courageous enough to make. Worst case scenario: I fail, and as we all know if you're not failing you're not taking risks, and if you're not taking risks what the hell are you doing with your life?! (Confession: It was actually this book that inspired me to finally take the leap. Follow-up blog post to come.) 


Since leaving the security of the Kansas City Symphony I've taken up an array of new jobs. First, I was selected to be the playwright in residence at the Johnson County Arts & Heritage Community Center, where I'm working in conjunction with resident artists Krista Tatschl Eyler and Arwen White to guide a group of middle schoolers as they write and perform a brand new musical one-act: "Checkmate." The program is free for students and funded entirely by the National Endowment for the Arts (w00t w00t!) We just wrapped up writing the script and dive into rehearsals this Saturday. We're the first resident artists to lead this particular program so everything has been one big test lab, but I'm very proud of our funny, creative, enthusiastic students. It feels good to be doing work that is both financially and artistically rewarding. 

I was also hired on as a peer educator in The Coterie Theatre's Dramatic Health Education Project, a sex ed program geared towards high schoolers. The material for this has been beastly to learn (ask me anything about STDs. Go ahead, ask me!) but ultimately very rewarding.

With moving to a new apartment, starting multiple new jobs, living the life of a bridesmaid for a weekend, and participating in the Midwest Dramatists Play Conference (which could be a whole blog post in itself), AND beginning my grad school application process (top choice: UCSD!) I haven't had much time for the one thing I do best: writing. Something I intend to fix PRONTO. As Dr. Who would say...

but hey, this blog post counts right?

but hey, this blog post counts right?

Bed Play: The Elements of Intimacy

I thought I was going to take the summer off this year, but the universe had other plans. 

This July I was fortunate enough to produce Bed Play: The Elements of Intimacy at The Living Room Theatre, July 8th-15th. With Director Katie Gilchrist at the helm and PSM tech goddess Lacey Pacheco we mounted this workshop in just two short weeks. Our cast included R. H Wilhoit, Alisa Lynn, T. Eric Morris, and Kyra Weinberger. 


This was a major learning experience for me! Mostly, once again I realized I'm capable of way more than I thought I was. However, I couldn't have done it alone. I owe a big thanks to our show sponsors: The Living Room Theater, Ron Simonian, Carter Publishing Studios, Melinda MacDonald, Rebecca McMillan, Ben Mayne, Morgan Myers, Leah Wilczewski, Zach Faust, Jen Benkert, Pete Bakely, Nancy Erickson, Amanda Davis, and Kristin Cook. 

Next up: my first musical! I'm soooo close to finishing draft one of "Working Title: Spellbound." This is a collaboration with composer Krista Pojman and we plan to have a stage reading in January of 2018. Stay tuned!